one day I'm like "i'm a diabetic watching my diet" then the next week I'm showing pictures of cupcakes and brownies I made. I didn't eat any of them. well, until tonight when I started trying to figure out what my photo of the day was going to be and I thought of how I didn't have any pictures of the cupcakes I decorated before.. so, I decided to try out my artistry in spare icing.
so, i have my webspace and a recycled layout.. I'm slowly building.. one. step. at. a time.
I really should be going to bed. in 16 days I will be 29. I decided I'm celebrating the whole month or as long as I can get people to carry on with me. To start my birthday month off, I baked cupcakes and brownies to share with all the folks I plan on partying it up with for the next *at least* 20 days. I know on the 20th I'm going to go to Hershey Park.
But I am getting ahead of myself. so, since, I can't let you taste the goodness, I'll let you see the product before it was finished... i made them with cherry frosting and the brownies are cheesecake swirl.
so, I'll be updating this for a little bit as I find a new webhost which I need to do by July 1. I think I already know which service I want to go with, but I'm not going to say it's definite so that I can carry on my procrastination and not work on a layout or anything of that nature.
I think God is telling me to take a break.
2 days after writing my last post, I woke up sick thinking it was from me drinking more liquor than I should of when I went out. I prayed to God to let me stop throwing up. I woke up Sunday feeling better. I even decided to test out commitment by buying a cellphone. I'm in a two year relationship... ooooo... and it's a good thing i got insurance in this relationship because within less than a month, my cellphone got ran over by a car. so i'm on phone 2 in 22 days. It's a cool phone though.. I have an LG env 2. I'm really diggin' it. That's weird for me to say since I used to be so anti-cellphone.. but it has proved convenient.
Anyhoo, I woke up the Monday and the throwing up was back. I can't explain the pain I had in my lower right belly.. I knew it wasn't normal... I finally broke down and went to the hospital.. I have diabetes yall. I never knew how much diabetes affects until I had to go through this diabetes info time while in the hospital.. so many freaking signs that I never knew. like my dry skin and feeling like the water was never hot enough and i did notice that where I used to be hot all the time, I was always feeling like it was drafty. I sat in the hospital for 6 days before being released.
Needless to say I've changed my diet and am on medicines which seem to take away my brain power but I guess that's good. I always say I overthink.. I was kind of upset. I grew out of my asthma and am taking on a new disease. It was weird though, when I couldn't keep anything down I was like I wish I was having an asthma attack, at least I would know what to do, or how to lay, or how I could relax myself. I'm telling yall, I am blessed.. more than once in my life I've had someone say they can't believe I'm alive. My doctor at the hospital said that if i didn't come in when I did, it could of attacked my kidneys.. I'm telling you, God must of kicked that pain in for that very reason because hello, this chick does NOT have insurance and if the pain wasn't getting me the way it was, I would NOT of went when I did.
So, yeah, I'm a diabetic. I mostly cut out sugars/low carbs and in 3 weeks I've lost 7 pounds. I keep trying to explain to people that's not the goal.. My diet is for lowering my sugar levels. then why did I mention it? Because it's amazing to me that cutting out mostly sugars I unintentionally lost weight..
well, that's all for now.
and for folks talking about email *cough*FENNIX*cough* I forgot my password so all my contacts and all that are lost with it.. i had some ridiculous clue for the hint thinking I was clever, but i proved too clever for my dang self.. so, i'm glad some of yall are hiding here... i'll definitely get in touch
but now.. i must walk the moo moo!
What is vox and this thing you calleth updating?
This week, jury selection for the R.Kelly sex tape trial began this week in Chicago. After 6 years of continuous attempts by the R.Kelly defense team to delay the case, a judge blocked their latest request, leaving the door open for what could be an embarrassing trial for R.Kelly.
We all know about the sex tape that became and still is an internet firestorm. There is concrete evidence that shows R.Kelly doing horrible and degrading things to a 14-year old girl (the girl is now in her twenties). He's been made fun of, disected, and even givien the chance to still go on tour and make new albums. But this is where it all might end for one of the most successful but enigmatic entertainers of our generation.
I'm not going to spend a lot of time trying to say why R.Kelly did it. I'm also not going to defend him on any account. I saw the tape, and I feel that R.Kelly is really guilty. Those of you who might read this may want to defend him. I'm hear to tell you don't bother. If you do defend him, you should be committed to a mental institution.
In closing, I'll say that just because you're a famous celebrity does not give you the right to do whatever you want and not face the consquences of your actions. R.Kelly is guilty, and a Cook County judge will give him the punishment that he deserves, and the justice the young woman and her family they deserve.
On Sunday April 13, 2008, the Seattle SuperSonics defeated the Dallas Mavericks 99-95 in front of a emotional home crowd at Key Arena. It was emotional because the Sonics appear to be moving to Oklahoma City next year. After 41 years of tradition, the first pro sports franchise to be located in the Pacific Northwest will be gone, but not forgotten.
The Sonics were established in 1967. Since that time, they have appeared in the playoffs 22 years, won several division titles, three Western Conference titles, and their lone NBA title in 1979. Players such as Gus Williams, Freddie Brown, Jack Sikma, Gary Payton, Shawn Kemp, Lenny Wilkens, Tom Chambers, and Ray Allen have all played in Seattle, and became fan favorites. Seattle has had some of the most loyal fans in the NBA, even though they have played in sereval venues( Seattle Center Coliseum, The Kingdome, Tacoma Dome, and Key Arena). The SuperSonics have been one of the most successful teams in the modern era of the NBA.
Fast forward to today. The team has suffered through three straight losing seasons, and are in the process of rebuilding the team with Kevin Durant and Jeff Green as key cogs on their roster. Owner Clay Bennett, who is a Oklahoma City native, once wanted to keep the team in Seattle if the city came up with public funds for a new arena. But when the city and the State of Washington rejected a 500 million dollar project for the arena, Bennett took his problems to Commissioner David Stern. After several months of negotiations, the NBA board of governors will meet later this month to decide if the team can move to Oklahoma City. If the owners have their way, it could happen.
So if Sunday was the last time we may see an NBA game in Seattle, let me say it has been fun watching Sonics games on TV for the last several years. The NBA will probably be shooting themselves if the move occurs because they will lose a great NBA city with a winning tradition. Hopefully, the city will get a new franchise. Unitl then, farwell Seattle. The NBA and I will miss you.
I play this song only because I am NO LONGER UNEMPLOYED..
Thank You, God!
Despite recent posts, I'm still in love with the concept of love. I just have to say that this song is probably in my top 10 of all time favorite songs. I've been listening to it like crazy since yesterday. Just because I think it's amazing.
I've been looking for work, nothing yet.
I was actually thinking of leaving the 'net, i saw no reason for me to put so much energy into something that seems like it bears no fruit. BUT, you know what I realized? well, what was brought to my attention by a buddy of mine. While I was complaining he said to me, "if it's important to you, then it can't be worthless" ain't that the gotdang truth and it makes so much sense.
Another associate of mine told me as I was wearing my pity party suit, "don't take this wrong but you have to do something besides sit under this dark cloud, do something about it, you talk a lot but you're not showing anything"
yeah, i got broke down in a good way. I do realize that I would rather complain about my life then change and I'm always the first one to encourage others to run after their dreams. I was about to run off a list of excuses as to why it's different for me.. but when I start off calling what I'm about to say an excuse.. it's not even worth elaborating.
I'm working on a plethora of things.
I just wanted to share these stories on my vox so that I can tell someone else that even when it seems like it's not worth the time.. if it's something you enjoy or are passionate about you should DO IT.
Everytime I build a website or make a graphic or write a poem, whenever I'm about to share I always say this to myself OUTLOUD "I DO IT BECAUSE I LOVE IT, NOT FOR THE LOVE" because sometimes I find that people are only doing things FOR the love and attention and if you base everything on how much feedback you get or how much people tell you what a great thing you did.. you'll always be disappointed.
at this time, I realize, I REFUSE TO GIVE UP on ANYthing I like doing, no matter how many folks question or criticize. It's not about validation.. it's about sharing what is dear to your heart.
I am off to watch DAN IN REAL LIFE and organize some things.
Good Morning.
